I've been purging once a day, every day, for the past week. Why is it so hard to stop this! Sometimes, I'll eat alright, but just feel like I've eaten too much...and then purge. Although, the last time I purged, I realized that I get this morbid satisfaction during/after purging... It's really odd.
About 2.5 hours ago, I ran 2 laps around the track, felt oddly exhausted, took a decently-long break, then timed my mile time. I was hoping to get to (or beat!) my previous record way back from freshman year of high school, but my 15-years old self won by 19 seconds. My record was (and still is I guess) 7:21. I'm kind of sad my mile time wasn't better than my old record since I've been running and exercising so much since December and have been training towards a 5k marathon. I should be fitter than before, but.... Well, I guess considering it was 3:30am and I had purged once before then.... I guess the mile time wasn't too bad after all? I would love to get down to a 6-minute mile!
Stay strong, lovelies. I'll try better to update more frequently. Blogging really helps sometimes. <3
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