Late night cravings suck!

I just binged on two pastries: a ham/cheese/jalapeno croissant and a chocolate chip roll. I'm debating right now if I should just go to the gym and burn off what I can and do better tomorrow/today (the smart choice), or to go purge to the toilet, then go to the gym. I can't stand all of this food sitting in my stomach.... and I still have electrolyte water left over for after-purging..... This shouldn't be a hard decision. Bulimia's grips on me were especially strong this past week...

As for this week... my fridge is pretty empty, and I'm not going to let myself shop for groceries until everything is gone. I think I have at least four-five days' worth of meals in there, if I don't eat much. Especially if I try that thing where I eat in the morning, skip lunch, then eat a light dinner.

My scale is still completely broken but I know I've gained a lot, and I want to get back on track starting today. It's a new month already.... new month to reach that next goal weight! I think once I get down to my UGW, I'll focus more on measurements instead of numbers on the scale. Then my broken scale wouldn't matter.

Too many setbacks last month, with all my binging and purging. This month will be better.

 I want this.

I hate my tummy and my thighs.