I live about a 3 minute walk from a 24-hour donut shop. I was actually hungry, so I wanted something to eat, but of course at 2 am, nothing is open. I did hold back a bit and bought only some donut holes and one donut, but I wasn't able to hold back from eating all of that. I tried so hard to purge just now......but barely anything at all came up. It was all saliva and perhaps a bit of blood because I may have scratched my throat. This sucks. There is donut holes and a donut too many inside me but there's nothing I can do to get it out. I am spending quality time at the gym today, for sure. I can't purge anymore. I don't want to, and my body refuses to do it anyway, so why try, right? If only my brain could listen to the rest of me! I feel so fat and gross right now...
Stay strong everyone, even when I can't. :(
Don't purge. So not worth it, if you hold yourself accountable for what you eat instead of trying to escape it, you eat waaay less.
ReplyDeleteAnd doughnuts are the worst, aside from pizza and french bread. My school is about 3 minutes from a doughnut place, it sucks. I've been a year without going there though, thank god. I used to walk past there every day, it was a nightmare.
I agree, and I'm really trying hard to stop purging. I just sometimes get into that "screw it all" mood, which is where the trouble starts..
DeleteI'm glad for you about not going to the doughnut place for a year! I need to get better about that. I think probably all bready/cakey things are the worst.