To be honest, I don't know why I decided to make a Blogger, but here it is. To whomever ends up reading this blog, I am making a promise right now: I will try not to post any numbers. By this, I mean numbers in weight, any stats, calories, things like that. That means less opportunity for triggers, I would hope. The only thing I will say is that I never want to see three digits on the scale ever again.
I don't know what I am, so for now I guess I can be "EDNOS". I binge/purge, I exercise heavily (although lately I've been pulling too many allnighters for school to bring myself to exercise for fear of passing out during and like falling onto a still-moving treadmill or something), and I restrict. I basically do anything and everything I can to lose weight, except laxatives. Story on that later maybe. I don't restrict ridiculously, but that's because I still believe in attempting to live a healthy lifestyle. It's been this way for almost a year now, with the worst b/p episodes being during this past Fall.
I am sick of spending money on food only to see it in the toilet bowl later, sick of a raw throat, sick of feeling like my life is spinning out of control, sick of caring so damn much about numbers. I just want to eat healthily and leave it at that.
Let's support each other?
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