It gives me a weird satisfaction when I go to bed hungry, because it means I didn't overeat that day/night. It means I didn't binge, didn't give into my cravings, or didn't even have any cravings at all.
I don't really know what to think, though, when I've been hungry all night but I also haven't slept. Like...after not sleeping and not eating for an extended period of time, is it okay to eat again? It's almost 7am. Is that nearing breakfast time, or did me eating dinner last night mean I still shouldn't be eating yet because it hasn't even begun nearing "unreasonably long without food"? At this point, I can never tell if I'm really hungry or not anymore. lol the things I think about instead of actually being productive.
Allnighters really mess with my sleeping and eating schedules. I noticed I tend to binge more and just not really care what I'm shoving into my mouth once I'm dead and sleep-deprived from working all night. School is what is killing me slowly, not my ED, ironically. Fuck school. But not really because I still kind of care, for now.
I love the empty feeling at bedtime... I'm addicted to it too. Get some rest <3
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<3 A Fragile Heart
Still awake, unfortunately, but thanks, love <3
DeleteWelcome to blogger! I look forward to reading more of your posts : )
ReplyDelete<3 Dainty
Thank you :) Do you have a blog as well?
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